When Love Is Assumed

Renee Ann Smith —  June 23, 2014 — 9 Comments

This post is part of the Atlas Girl Blog Tour which I am delighted to be a part of along with hundreds of inspiring bloggers. To learn more and join us, CLICK HERE! 

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I grew up in a home where love was assumed.

In my neighborhood, parents worked jobs, had children, enjoyed their small luxuries—color television, decent cars, wall-to-wall carpet—and lived quiet.

Love in action was a roof over your head, food on the table, and presents at Christmas and birthdays.

Love was not spoken. But I did hear powerful words . . . “who does he think I am?” and “look what I’ve had to put up with” and “I’m not going out of my way for THOSE PEOPLE.”

And I saw love as something to be doled out in small portions—like when dessert had to stretch to the seven of us crowded around our table.

Where more for someone else meant less for me. So I hid & hoarded my share.

During my teen years, God touched my life. I gave my heart to Him, and He filled it to overflowing.

I read verses like John 4:13&14 . . .

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. . . and Romans 8:38&39 . . .

Atlas Girl Emily Wierenga. . . and I marveled at God’s extravagant love.

It almost seemed wasteful, pouring out all that on a life as small as mine.

I wanted to believe in that love, to live in it, to share it. But something about the odd choice of words in Romans 8:38 niggled in my brain.

Was LIFE something to fear, something that might separate me from God? The idea seemed ridiculous.

Then I grew older and the happily-ever-afters I dreamed of as a girl fell apart.

I discovered how LIFE can scrape and press and grind until the overflowing fountain of my heart became a broken cistern.

And I once again became a hoarder, trying to stop up even the trickles of love that were seeping away.

When I tried to guard my own heart, I not only shut others out—I shut myself off from God’s love as well.

How did He fix me? He broke me even more.

When I allowed Him to work—He demolished that cracked cistern and replaced it once again with the wellspring of His love. 

God showed me that He is greater than my heart & I can trust Him to guard it.

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So I can be filled enough to overflow and yet never be left feeling empty.

I’m blessed that you stopped by today, friends. Have a beautiful week!

Emily Wierenga Atlas Girl***Did I mention this post is part of a blog tour? Emily T. Wierenga, award-winning journalist and author of 4 books, has released her first memoir, Atlas Girl: Finding Home in the Last Place I Thought to Look. They say the book is like “Girl Meets God” meets “Wild” meets “Eat, Pray, Love.” I say the book is inspiring. You can grab a copy here.

For God is greater than our worried hearts & knows more about us than we do ourselves. ~I John 3:20, The Message~

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Renee Ann Smith

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I teach literature in a Christian high school by day and write inspirational fiction by night. I love to share heart-touching quotes and stories here on my blog. So glad you stopped by!

9 responses to When Love Is Assumed

  1. Beautiful. I love the imagery and how you shared that you went from thinking it was wasteful to hoarding love to being a cup overflowing and never empty. Emily’s book spoke deeply to my heart. I hope many many read her words and also discover these types of truths.

  2. Renee, i. just. think. you. ROCK! so grateful to walk with you on this journey. you are a blessing.

  3. Renee,
    What a hard but beautiful truth you write about here…how God breaks us to allow more of His love ultimately to fill us and how we don’t need to hoard His love…Thank you for writing from a place of hard won truth…truly beautiful…Thank you :) Nice to meet you via Emily :)

  4. Renee,

    It’s nice to be here again. :) I’m hopping over from the Atlas Girl link up. You caught me with the love was assumed line. I assumed you meant in a good way, and then your imagery of hoarding up the love (and desserts) as something to be scrimped up, saved, in case of droughts captured my attention. Hmm, it’s true how we can fall into that mindset or assumption sometimes. I’m so thankful for our God who uses words like lavishes, and great riches, and unfailing, and sufficient for me. Ahh… :)

    Have a great week. Enjoying Emily’s book with you,
    Jennifer Dougan
    http://www.jenniferdougan.com

  5. So good to visit here for the first time and be connecting through Atlas Girl. That is a gift. You write profound words. Such as this: ===>”I discovered how LIFE can scrape and press and grind until the overflowing fountain of my heart became a broken cistern.” Blessed by your post. And thanks for making the tweets so easy. Yaaa!

  6. Renee, loved reading your story. I am actually doing a Good Morning Girls study on God’s love right now, so this fit nicely into my heart. :)

    Thanks for linking up at Thought-Provoking Thursday!

  7. I’m soaking up your words of encouragement & wisdom, ladies! I’m so glad I was able to promote your lovely posts. Blessings!

  8. oh friend, thank you-for your transparency and heart, for your vulnerability and compassion. I’m just so blessed by you!

  9. And look at you now- lavishing your words and your story out on us. Beautiful Renee, really lovely.

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